The Wandering Beloved: Ten Year Anniversary Edition

Picking up where The Wandering Leader left off, continue the journey with this special ten year anniversary edition. 

Wanna know what the real problem is? It’s God.

Deep down, in that quiet place of the heart, the problem isn’t doubt—it’s disappointment. Hurt by the church. Betrayed by leaders. Embarrassed by how “Christians” behave. So I walked away. For more than a decade, I left God behind and chased success, money, and happiness instead. I blamed God for the wounds His people caused me.

But that wasn’t God.

What followed was not a return to religion—but an unexpected pursuit. Through the army, coaching professional hockey in Europe, serving victims of war in Burma, and a long, lonely walk across Spain, I began to encounter a God I didn’t recognize. Not a rule-keeper. Not a tradition-enforcer. A God after the heart.

In the middle of depression and doubt, faith didn’t come from a warm feeling or a church service. It came through reason, evidence, and a hard, honest reckoning with reality. God wasn’t just real—He was good.

Want to know if God is actually real? Want to meet the real Jesus?
Come on an adventure in this ten year anniversary edition.